{ Bjana } + A group of [ AMAZING ] people + Lake House = The ---> BEST <--- Weekend EVER!!!!
{ Birthday Night Dinner }
Friday, July 9, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
9 Days Down.. 361 More Days to go!
So I knew 2 months into our relationship that Steven was leaving for Abi Dhabi for a year. We met May 14th, 2009 and started dating July 31st, 2009! He found out he was PCSing September I believe. I didnt really know what to expect bc ive never had to go through this part. Ive dated a few military guys in my life and I have military guys in my family, but Ive never dealt first hand with it. Steven left June 1st, 2010 - which means means he will be gone longer then we have been together.
Which brings me to my next thing....People were then asking why stay together? Well to be honest.....
All though me and Steven havent been dating that long, we have really enjoyed each others company. We have a lot in common and we have learned a lot for each other. We make each other laugh, we have fun together, we have the same hobbies (give or take a few) , and we have a lot of the same goals in life.
Why give up with out even trying. Doesn't every one deserve a chance in life and love?
Steven and I have more fun then most couples I know. Sure there's a few people in my past they never really gave him a chance, but thats when you learn who your true friends are. At first it took me a while to get over it, bc yeah they were some of my closest friends. But when I realized they were the ones they didnt like him, bc everyone else in my life; friends and family adore him. If you cant love all of me, including Steven, then you cant have any of me....
9 days since he's been gone!
I didnt really know what to expect when he left. I had a lot of time to work my way into it. The last few days up in till he left was a little hard for me. I want to spend as much time with him, but it seemed like everything small and big was aggravating me. I hated stupid things bothering me. I tried to keep my distance with out actually keeping my distance. I didnt want him to see how much it was killing me knowing he was gonna be gone for a year. May 31st, the day before he left - not only was it a holiday and he had it off, I actually had to work. We enjoyed the little bit of time we had that night by going to dinner. Of course we ate sushi, and way to much at that. But the time we spent together is what I enjoyed the most. The next morning we had to get up early bc Steven had to be at the airport at noon. I hated so much bc we could really do anything that morning, no taking our time. It was all rushing. When I dropped him off at the airport it was sweet and simple. No good byes. Just Hugs and kisses and see you soon! I kept my sunglasses on - so he couldnt actually see the tears starting. I got in the car and left, I couldnt sit there and watch him walk away......
Its been quiet and lonely, thats for sure! Just me and the Dog. He's not really sure whats going on - but he's been a lil down, but im guessing thats just off of my feelings. I work Mon - Friday 8 to 5. So when I get off work, Ive been keeping my self busy by cleaning the house. The first few days...I didnt really want to leave the house or go any where. Things are not the same with out Steven, there not as much fun. I have good friends here that will keep me busy and not worry about him. I dont really get to talk to him that much. He's 8 hours ahead of me. So when Im sleeping hes at work and When hes sleeping Im at work. It kinda sucks!
Im a strong person! I can get through this. I just wont show you when its effecting me...
Im a strong person! I can get through this. I just wont show you when its effecting me...
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Dinner w/ the Parents.....
[Me & Mom]
{Me & My Steven}
- Aunt Bjana and Steven LOVES Hunter -
{Smile Hunter}
A Dinner at Red Lobster to enjoy some family time before Steven deploys on Tuesday!
Monday, May 24, 2010
How BIG is a Valken bag?
My New BIG Bag - Its as big as me...
I can get inside of it....
Haha...I can zip it up toooo
Now Steven can take me with him :)
Sunday, May 16, 2010
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Hunters One!!
Saturday, February 27, 2010
There is a Reason
“There comes a point in life when you realize who matters, who never did, who won’t anymore, and who always will. Don’t worry about people from your past – there’s a reason they never made it to your future…”
"Is there such a thing as people who never meant to be in your life? Perhaps there is some truth to the above statement.
I will just like to say off the bat, that I’m so glad to have the people in my life right now, those who have allowed me to be in their lives and those who I’ve allowed to be in mine.
I think that when it comes to people, we need to understand two things – one, what’s the purpose of them being in our lives and two, at what stage or duration are they supposed to be there. You’ve heard it said before, “There’s friends for a reason, friends for a season and friends for life!”
“Who matters…who never did…who won’t anymore…who always will”
WHO MATTERS:
It’s all about my commitment to others, such as my family, my friends, my boyfriend, and people who’ll read LOVE OUT LOUD, they matter to me because I’m committed to them. I’m choosing to give myself to them on my own free will, despite their commitment to me. The one person I feel this towards is my younger sister! That girl can do anything and I’d still love her as if she did nothing bad! I don’t remember the last time I ever was in unforgiveness towards her (if I ever was), I was mad at her but she matters to me so much that it just goes away the next day! :)
WHO NEVER DID:
Very few times in my life did I ever feel this way. These are the people that God has placed in my life, gave them an opportunity to impact my life or contribute by adding value to it, and never really chose to do anything. I never really sensed it much, because I tend to see the purpose in all my connections but there have been people who’ve haven’t done anything, and it’s not because they weren’t meant to be in my life, but they simply chose not to participate in my life (or haven’t allowed me to participate in theirs).
WHO WON’T ANYMORE:
I met tons of these people! The “Who Won’t Anymore’s” are not bad people, but they are those who at one point or another mattered greatly, I either was committed to them, or they had a covenant (promise) with me and chose to “not” to, “anymore”. So, the “Who Won’t Anymore’s” again aren’t bad people but have not made the choice to be “Who Always Will” kinda people. It’s one’s own choice and these people are seasonal. I think this is the largest group of people we’ll ever experience in our lives.
WHO ALWAYS WILL:
People who I am in covenant with or who have declared a commitment to me. They are those who have chosen to contribute significantly to my destiny, like my leaders, my very best friends. Those who stuck with me through thick and thin and still believed that they are called to help me in my destiny as I in theirs are the ones who have paid the price to commit to their relationship with me. When I make a covenant with someone, I assume that they will keep it and not break it – therefore I will tend to give myself freely to people like this. It’s great when they actually keep their word and never become the “Who Won’t Anymore’s”.
I probably was each one of these types of people, but I desire greatly to be a “Who Matters” person and a “Who Always Will” person. I want to reduce being a “Who Won’t Anymore” person to people, but in reality, we’ll only truly come across a select few who will always matter, like our spouses, our family, and perhaps even a few good friends that you can only count on the palm of your hand.
And finally…“Don’t worry about people from your past – there’s a reason they never made it to your future…”
I know that when we worry about people in our past, we really don’t realize who we have in the here and now, and more importantly, who we will have in the future.
Now, people who haven’t made it to our future because of choice or situations or circumstances. We’ll never have all the answers as to why this happens – BUT it goes without saying that God has a great plan for all of us! And I truly believe there is a reason why some just don’t make it. Will we know? Probably not until we get to heaven, but all I know is that everybody that makes it in your future are meant to be there.
I believe it takes commitment, dedication, perseverance and character to be in anyone’s future! It’s a strong price to pay to stick with someone for possibly the rest of your life and people will only make that kind of commitment if they have a reason to. For a person to make it to your FUTURE would have to see the value you have in theirs, and therefore everyone in your future has paid some price to stay there! It makes them worthy of being a part of your life journey! It’s a given that there are reasons why people aren’t in your life, but I believe that people who choose to be in yours and you allow them to be, is such a beautiful thing! It’s rare, but if you can have people in your life who are willing to make that sacrifice, commitment and devotion – it’s so wonderful! And I believe it’s starts with being that type of person to others."
This is something I found....I tweaked it a little, but it fits so perfect for the way I feel about people im my life.
"Is there such a thing as people who never meant to be in your life? Perhaps there is some truth to the above statement.
I will just like to say off the bat, that I’m so glad to have the people in my life right now, those who have allowed me to be in their lives and those who I’ve allowed to be in mine.
I think that when it comes to people, we need to understand two things – one, what’s the purpose of them being in our lives and two, at what stage or duration are they supposed to be there. You’ve heard it said before, “There’s friends for a reason, friends for a season and friends for life!”
“Who matters…who never did…who won’t anymore…who always will”
WHO MATTERS:
It’s all about my commitment to others, such as my family, my friends, my boyfriend, and people who’ll read LOVE OUT LOUD, they matter to me because I’m committed to them. I’m choosing to give myself to them on my own free will, despite their commitment to me. The one person I feel this towards is my younger sister! That girl can do anything and I’d still love her as if she did nothing bad! I don’t remember the last time I ever was in unforgiveness towards her (if I ever was), I was mad at her but she matters to me so much that it just goes away the next day! :)
WHO NEVER DID:
Very few times in my life did I ever feel this way. These are the people that God has placed in my life, gave them an opportunity to impact my life or contribute by adding value to it, and never really chose to do anything. I never really sensed it much, because I tend to see the purpose in all my connections but there have been people who’ve haven’t done anything, and it’s not because they weren’t meant to be in my life, but they simply chose not to participate in my life (or haven’t allowed me to participate in theirs).
WHO WON’T ANYMORE:
I met tons of these people! The “Who Won’t Anymore’s” are not bad people, but they are those who at one point or another mattered greatly, I either was committed to them, or they had a covenant (promise) with me and chose to “not” to, “anymore”. So, the “Who Won’t Anymore’s” again aren’t bad people but have not made the choice to be “Who Always Will” kinda people. It’s one’s own choice and these people are seasonal. I think this is the largest group of people we’ll ever experience in our lives.
WHO ALWAYS WILL:
People who I am in covenant with or who have declared a commitment to me. They are those who have chosen to contribute significantly to my destiny, like my leaders, my very best friends. Those who stuck with me through thick and thin and still believed that they are called to help me in my destiny as I in theirs are the ones who have paid the price to commit to their relationship with me. When I make a covenant with someone, I assume that they will keep it and not break it – therefore I will tend to give myself freely to people like this. It’s great when they actually keep their word and never become the “Who Won’t Anymore’s”.
I probably was each one of these types of people, but I desire greatly to be a “Who Matters” person and a “Who Always Will” person. I want to reduce being a “Who Won’t Anymore” person to people, but in reality, we’ll only truly come across a select few who will always matter, like our spouses, our family, and perhaps even a few good friends that you can only count on the palm of your hand.
And finally…“Don’t worry about people from your past – there’s a reason they never made it to your future…”
I know that when we worry about people in our past, we really don’t realize who we have in the here and now, and more importantly, who we will have in the future.
Now, people who haven’t made it to our future because of choice or situations or circumstances. We’ll never have all the answers as to why this happens – BUT it goes without saying that God has a great plan for all of us! And I truly believe there is a reason why some just don’t make it. Will we know? Probably not until we get to heaven, but all I know is that everybody that makes it in your future are meant to be there.
I believe it takes commitment, dedication, perseverance and character to be in anyone’s future! It’s a strong price to pay to stick with someone for possibly the rest of your life and people will only make that kind of commitment if they have a reason to. For a person to make it to your FUTURE would have to see the value you have in theirs, and therefore everyone in your future has paid some price to stay there! It makes them worthy of being a part of your life journey! It’s a given that there are reasons why people aren’t in your life, but I believe that people who choose to be in yours and you allow them to be, is such a beautiful thing! It’s rare, but if you can have people in your life who are willing to make that sacrifice, commitment and devotion – it’s so wonderful! And I believe it’s starts with being that type of person to others."
This is something I found....I tweaked it a little, but it fits so perfect for the way I feel about people im my life.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Sugar Mountain Snowboarding Trip!
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