Wednesday, June 9, 2010

9 Days Down.. 361 More Days to go!


So I knew 2 months into our relationship that Steven was leaving for Abi Dhabi for a year. We met May 14th, 2009 and started dating July 31st, 2009! He found out he was PCSing September I believe. I didnt really know what to expect bc ive never had to go through this part. Ive dated a few military guys in my life and I have military guys in my family, but Ive never dealt first hand with it. Steven left June 1st, 2010 - which means means he will be gone longer then we have been together. 

Which brings me to my next thing....People were then asking why stay together? Well to be honest.....

All though me and Steven havent been dating that long, we have really enjoyed each others company. We have a lot in common and we have learned a lot for each other. We make each other laugh, we have fun together, we have the same hobbies (give or take a few) , and we have a lot of the same goals in life.

Why give up with out even trying. Doesn't every one deserve a chance in life and love?

Steven and I have more fun then most couples I know. Sure there's a few people in my past they never really gave him a chance, but thats when you learn who your true friends are. At first it took me a while to get over it, bc yeah they were some of my closest friends. But when I realized they were the ones they didnt like him, bc everyone else in my life; friends and family adore him. If you cant love all of me, including Steven, then you cant have any of me....

9 days since he's been gone! 

I didnt really know what to expect when he left. I had a lot of time to work my way into it. The last few days up in till he left was a little hard for me. I want to spend as much time with him, but it seemed like everything small and big was aggravating me. I hated stupid things bothering me. I tried to keep my distance with out actually keeping my distance. I didnt want him to see how much it was killing me knowing he was gonna be gone for a year. May 31st, the day before he left - not only was it a holiday and he had it off, I actually had to work. We enjoyed the little bit of time we had that night by going to dinner. Of course we ate sushi, and way to much at that. But the time we spent together is what I enjoyed the most. The next morning we had to get up early bc Steven had to be at the airport at noon. I hated so much bc we could really do anything that morning, no taking our time. It was all rushing. When I dropped him off at the airport it was sweet and simple. No good byes. Just Hugs and kisses and see you soon! I kept my sunglasses on - so he couldnt actually see the tears starting. I got in the car and left, I couldnt sit there and watch him walk away......

Its been quiet and lonely, thats for sure! Just me and the Dog. He's not really sure whats going on - but he's been a lil down, but im guessing thats just off of my feelings. I work Mon - Friday 8 to 5. So when I get off work, Ive been keeping my self busy by cleaning the house. The first few days...I didnt really want to leave the house or go any where. Things are not the same with out Steven, there not as much fun. I have good friends here that will keep me busy and not worry about him. I dont really get to talk to him that much. He's 8 hours ahead of me. So when Im sleeping hes at work and When hes sleeping Im at work. It kinda sucks!

Im a strong person! I can get through this. I just wont show you when its effecting me...