Dear Emersyn,
Today you are five. FIVE. Five. I just need to say it a few times because this is a BIG one to me. You’re FIVE!!!
I am sort of in denial that you are now five. Five sounds so very big to me. Your not a toddler and most certainly, not a baby. But that doesn’t change the fact that you are and always will be MY baby. We have heard about all your birthday plans for months, so it’s safe to say we’re going to have a blast celebrating Saturday!
Your fifth birthday means starting kindergarten in the fall. You love to learn and can’t wait to go to school. You know your letters and numbers pretty well, we are still working on them bc you like to say them super fast and forget one or two. You have the spelling of your first name down pat, but your still working on your middle & last name. But your determined to have it before you start school!
You love playing pretend and dressing up. You love anything that twirls or has a tutu! You are shoe girl, just like me and will rock anything with a sparkly heel. You love playing outside, riding your bike, roller skating, hanging out at the beach and everything baseball!
You put on your own clothes. You like to help in the kitchen like your sister. You get your own drink from the fridge. You feel less like my baby and more like my big girl.
You are 5 and you are brave, independent, stubborn, strong-willed, loving, bossy, cuddly, and tough all in one. You are perfectly you.
Every day I ask myself to help me make you & your sister the best versions of yourself. To parent the children I have, not the ones I think you should be. And as I help you both become the best versions of yourself, you both make me a better me.
I’ll never forget the laughter that fills our house from you and Charleston’s giggles, your love of shopping, all things girly, and eating out. You love trips to target, eating mac n cheese or pizza! Playing with your Daddy is one of your favorite things and you love girl time with mommy. You would love it if you could spend everyday with your cousins! You and your sister are best friends and partners in crime. You have so much fun together and you are such a good little sister. Your world is filled with Barbies, American girl dolls, Coloring, Painting, Playing dress up & Imaginary play.
Your 5-year-old world is so wonderful, I never want to leave. I just want time to stop this very second. To pause long enough that I can remember every little thing you said and every little thing that you did. While you find out who you are, I embrace every single thing about you that makes you you, from the good to the bad.
With every joy and setback of your life, you move forward and so do I. Soon, you will be walking into the school with Charleston. You will have new friends and teachers in your world that I won't quite know. Life will feel less safe and scarier. I will hold my breath and hope more. I will hope the world is kind to you both when my eyes are not on you.
But I know you will make me proud. I know you will shine.
Happy 5th Birthday sweet girl!!
We love you so much!
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