Saturday, November 17, 2018

Letters to Emersyn - 1 Year Old

Dearest Emersyn!

Happy birthday, sweet girl! You might be our second (third), but you have given us so many first. And somehow, you’ve made motherhood feel brand new all over again. 

You will never understand (until maybe your a mom) how badly I wanted you. Before your big sister celebrated her first birthday, we had set our sights on you. My patience got the best of me waiting on you. For every month that passed without news that God was making you was a blessing in disguise. 

The quiet time we shared those nine months was something beautiful and terrifying. You didn’t let me rest much (and you still don’t), you were always on the move. The doctors monitored me closely because blood work was off in the beginning. We got to know you pretty well with all the ultrasounds and doctor visits. You wanted the world to know you were coming and you had big things to do.
Walking at 10 months was defiantly one of them. Now your cruising on your way.
I love that your still a snuggler! You always greet me with the biggest hug you can give, and now your always giving kisses too. You absolutely love to just sit in my lap or whoever's and hang out. Its the cutest.

Some advice for you and your sister that you won't understand for quite some time, But I write these letters now in hopes that you'll will look back on them later. There is so much about you that is already so unique and special. Don't lose that fire and determination you have in your eye. In life you will come up against many challenges. I wish it was not true but that's how it goes. There will be days and people that will seem determined to get you down. You will fail test, arrive late to important meetings, receive a speeding ticket, or have a falling-out with a friend. The bubble that your daddy and I have tried to build around you both with pop. Life will not always, at least not every day, be as sweet as it is now. But that's okay. I want to give you the tools you will need to get though it all. Most of these tools you already have in your belt. And you have a whole bunch of people in your circle who love you dearly.

One of the biggest things I can teach you and your sister.. is Don't be a bully. Don't give in to the crown that makes you think it's okay to hurt someone or put them down. Every person is special and should be treated with respect. If you see it happening, speak up. The only way to stop them is to confront them.

Finally, my sweet girl, I don't want you to ever stop dancing. I don't care if you don't know the moves (like me most of the time). It isn't important how high your leg goes or if your head is moving to the beat. Music has a profound power over you already, I can see it. I turn on the music and you instantly bust a move. You absolutely love to dance and it makes me smile every time you start moving.

As you navigate through life's joys and challenges, please keep this in mind. You are able to move people, to shift emotions, with just the sway of your hips. Whatever you are up against, whomever breaks your heart. Wherever your big dreams take you and however little you have in your pocket, don't stop. Let the worries wash away as you turn the volume up and get moving. It's a beautiful and crazy life, my sweet girl. Don't back down - just keep dancing through it.

One year down and many more to go. No matter where you go or what you do, may your mother's words remain in your head and your heart. I love you. There's nothing truer.

Always, 
Mommy